“Why do you put on yoga music to do yoga, to do meditation, to relax your body?” asks my son as he was drifting off to sleep in our bed. He wanted to snuggle, and I needed to shake off the day.

They notice so much more than we think. I was influenced by my own parent's habit of movement. My mother always enjoyed riding her bike around the neighborhood, daily calisthenics, and now walks. My father went jogging every evening without fail after a long day at work and into retirement. He continues to walk when he is able. It is their practice in movement.  

Why DO I do yoga? I think the question is why did I start practicing yoga.

I began when I was searching for ways to slow the pendulum of mood swings and grab some peace and stability. I thought I could eradicate the mood swings all together until I realized that mood changes are a normal part of living. It is how quickly we find our equilibrium that matters.

I read a study somewhere that said that yoga was good for mood disorders and bought a yoga DVD and a mat. I would move onto taking classes online, and connected with one instruction in particular. David Magone was as much a truth teller as a yoga teacher. He would guide me through the subtle shifts in awareness that made finding the proper alignment possible. He would speak of intention and to stay with your breath. I followed along for a long time before I understood what any of it meant.

Change is like this. 

We have to get out of our comfort zone and just begin somewhere. Just write, share, sing, or move, in whatever channel was given to you when you were born to express yourself most freely. It is where you can begin. We have to start if we ever want to learn. 

Learning is a moving target.

I have been reading a lot about Curative Education. A healing practice that originated out of the work of Rudolph Steiner and then further developed by Dr. Karl König. Dr. König went on to found the Camphill Movement in Scotland in 1940.

“The world speaks to children through their class teacher if the teacher has first permitted the world in its abundance to speak to them.” Kevin Avison & Martyn Rawson - Towards Creative Teaching

One of the most powerful things that I discovered about Waldorf teachers is the focus on the foundation of the teacher’s inner life. As we started our hybrid learning experiment, I went looking for a guide. A daily what to do type of thing. 

The problem is that my children and your children are evolving. They are always in transition, so a step by step plan just doesn’t flow well. The curriculum is the child, so we must learn to flow through it with them. 

As I began this path of learning how to help my son, I was frustrated by my lack of knowledge of how best to begin. I followed my connection to nature and found ways to soothe us all in the connection there. 

It would be my education of my inner life that has led to the awareness needed to help him. As I began to understand my inner storyteller and the false dialog, my new knowledge spilled over into parenting. As with any moving target, there are days when I do better than others.

That is why I do yoga at the end of the day. It is about acceptance that I must continue to stretch and find stability in myself to guide myself and my children through life.

They are paying attention, and we are always learning. Our life begins again each day.